Whew . The worst - and most bizarre - season of " The Bachelor" is finally over .
After a tearful , angry and controversial comments , Bachelor rocky season Juan Pablo did not get down on one knee to propose to a lucky bride- to-be in St. Lucia. Instead , he offered the last woman standing , Nikki Ferrell just a rose.
" I can not imagine spending my life without you ," Nikki , 26, said John Paul, clearly expecting a diamond ring . " I love you . "
"I see it as a good stepmother Camilla, " John Paul , 32 , said. "It was a perfect moment every time I am with you. "
Then it got awkward .
"I have here a ring in my pocket and I 'm not going to use it," he said. "I'm not 100 percent sure I want to propose to you , but at the same time, I am 100 percent sure that I do not wanna let you go . Really like you . Way, Nikki , will you accept my final rose? "
"Absolutely," Nikki said.
Really?
The departure of Sub Clare Crawley was so uncomfortable .
" I appreciate you being here and trusting me all the time," John Paul said Clare . " But I have to follow what I think is best for me. 'm Going to have to say goodbye to you. "
Clare is furious .
"All this time I 've stuck around because I believed in you ," she said, fighting back tears . "I needed that confidence [ in our meeting last night ] and I gave you the opportunity right now . "
Clare was alluding to a moment out of the camera for the last date of the couple, when John Paul told Clara that barely knew at all.
"He told me that he really does not know me and then said something sexual ," Clare said last night. "It was an insult and it made me feel horrible. 's Words he used ... I can not even repeat it."
Clare and Andi cited Sharleen Joynt Dorfman , two women who left the program as soon as they felt no connection .
"You had every opportunity as the other girls did to tell me how he felt, " she said. "I lose respect . I would not want my children to have a father like you. "
Ouch .
Furthermore ouch ? Comment by Juan Pablo quietly when Clare ran away crying.
"I 'm glad you did not choose it. "
The show became even stranger during the live " After the end of the Rose " special following the recorded end.
Juan Pablo and Nikki made their first public appearance together, and while most couples " Bachelor" gush about finally being able to appear together after three months in hiding , profess their love on several occasions and show engagement rings , the atmosphere was quite awkward and emotionless .
" So you love ? " Host Chris Harrison asked .
"I will not answer that question ," said Juan Pablo . " People do not understand this is real life . 're Very happy and makes us well with the show."
" So .... you're not going to tell her you love her ? " Chris asked , obviously puzzled . "This is what this show is about . We are on this journey with you . This is your time to shine. You can express your feelings."
Chris alums surveyed former " Bachelor" in the audience , honeymooners Catherine and Sean Lowe , who tried to explain to John Paul who joined a reality show and the spotlight is part of the deal.
" Do not bite the hand that feeds you ," Catherine said , to applause from the studio audience .
"This is a real relationship for us," Nikki said. " We're taking it very seriously. Has a daughter, who not only has himself to think."
"Sorry the show did not end as you wanted ," said Juan Pablo , to boos from the audience.
"This is so uncomfortable, " Chris said, laughing , as he tried once again to get some information from the couple , asking his plans for the future.
"We have our plans ," said John Paul . "It's something we want to keep private. "
Fans " Bachelor" breathed a sigh of relief when the show cut to a commercial break and Chris was able to announce the new Bachelorette - Atlanta assistant district attorney and fan favorite - Andi .
The new season of "The Bachelorette " premieres May 19.